interesting crowdfunding startup to fund healthcare around the world; maybe we can all help out Faith?
I can’t believe it’s been a month already since graduation. Life has been good; found an apartment; made a couple new friends; work has been aiiite. I still feel like a noob even though it’s already my 3rd full week in. A new kid joined the team last week. I can tell already he’s super legit and smart. I’m really happy he joined because I really enjoy talking to him more than anyone else in the office, but at the same time I am a little anxious because I feel like he’s already better than me at everything.
If someone were to ask me whether I’d want to be #1 at a shitty school, or average/ below average in a really great school; I’d pick the latter and hope that I’d be able to learn from those around me. Learning from smart people takes a lot of humility though. I just want to be praised and told that I’m wonderful, but I guess that doesn’t really lead to self improvement.. I shall work extra harder and be the very best (that no one ever was #pokemon). I hope that I will not grow weary or envious in the process.
Charlotte Smith | http://charlottesmith.fr
"Paper Food is a self Initiated 3D paper project."
Charlotte is a freelance graphic designer, currently based in Paris, France. She loves anything to do with type or handlettering. Flowers and pastel colours are alos a bit hit with her. She is focused on graphic design, typography, illustration and crafts.
Food + Pretty Paper = <3
Two of the things I love added together.
- Senior week and graduation
- Short VT trip with family
- Being home
- Going on a mini vacation with my bestie
- Seeing my Az buddies
- Starting a new chapter of my life (aka. work)
- Getting hired
- Meeting nice people
- Reuniting with Dmouth friends
- Eating good food
- Losing my phone
- Feeling anxious about everything
- Seeing and hearing about a lot of injustice in the area, and not doing anything to address it
- Feeling conflicted about where I stand on things
- Feeling judged and uncomfortable
- Fighting with my brother
- Just being on the sideline of things and not having friends around who are excited to see me
I have so much on my mind right now. If only thoughts could simply get sorted to various compartments in my mind and just settle there.
- Figure out when I am going to work out and then follow through with my plan.
- Become extremely familiar with my company’s product and be able to explain everything in great detail.
- Try at least 5 new ice cream places.
- Finish the book that I am reading.
- Mail my thank you cards (should probably do this by this weekend).
- Find an apt to lease for a full year.
- Make new friends.
- Try new things.
- Sing a new song ~
I really miss my friends and being around those who know me. The only time I have really been “the new girl” was 5th grade in Korea when I went back for the summer. My mother wanted me to go to school, so I randomly went for a couple months. It was nice then because my coolness level was set really high just because I was from America, and everyone wanted to be my friend. I realized that normally, that’s not the case. I’ve only been “new” with other people who were also “new” so it made meeting people a lot easier and exciting. Here, I’m new and most people are comfortable with the friends they have and aren’t that excited to make new ones. It feels more difficult to get pass the polite/simply pleasant stage of building a relationship.
I also miss having my own space and having my items nicely organized.
I miss having more chill time. I am seriously at work all day.
I miss mother.
I miss my dog. Oh wait, I don’t have one.
I’ve had a difficult time with being ‘true to myself.’ Are my initial negative judgments and reactions to unpleasant situations part of my real self? Is doing what I don’t like being fake? Is smiling when I don’t feel like it being superficial? Is trying to care when I don’t want to being a hypocrite? When I say I could give my all to god, am I lying? Do I even care about others? Have I even loved anyone?
Ok and after being true to self, and being real and all that - should I then be real with others? And to what extent? Last term, I tried to be real and ‘expressed myself’ and learned that the dogmas of this world aren’t something I should live by. It’s difficult when my various selves feel disintegrated and many contrasting views seem to collide.
- Good at explaining things
- Passionate and genuine about faith
- Musically talented
- Good fashion sense
- Great skin
- Somewhat good-looking
- Soft hair
- Clean teeth
- Fit body
- Enjoys randomness
- Kills bugs
I could generate a longer list, but I actually just like people who can create a comfortable environment for anyone and make me happy.
The person I am thinking of, I will not name because it would be extremely weird and might confuse people. I remember first seeing him and really wanting to get to know him. He’s not even that attractive but I think it was some weird self-confidence and maturity I sensed that drew my attention. Even though I rarely interacted with him, I felt as though he was an inner philosopher with a mind garden filled with growing thoughts and ideas. I don’t think the fascination was very mutual though. No one will ever know now. I hope he writes an autobiography someday before I die.